I used to think that energy was much like gas in my car, consumed, depleted, and then physically refilled at some cost.
My launch pad into energy came from a curiosity about quantum physics and all that yoga talk about energetic vibrations. After I got over my resistance of how woo-woo it was and decided to give a deeper, detached look into it, I found it something incredibly simple and delightful...and empowering.
I didn't connect, until recently, that low physical energy was a symptom of poor energetic management on my part, primarily by me permitting others to take up space, compressing it and making me smaller.
People have often told me at work, "Don't give your power away! You deserve credit for your hard work!" when I thought I was being humble and self-effacing. Instead, it's like everything else in my life - I needed to take responsibility for my energy, beginning with the realization that I have the right, just like everyone else, to own 100% of it.
I recently learned that while energy is endless, ever flowing and "enough" for everyone, including myself, I don't have to build a moat to keep it from depleting myself. I can give positive "vibes" generously because I'm constantly connected to the flow of it.
Because of that, it's easy and light to manage, and its boundaries, permeable and flexible allow me to occupy 100% of my space AND connect fully with others. It's like sitting in a high chair, able to see what's going on, cut the cords of those who take up "space" after I've allowed them to become senior in MY space so that I can have seniority energetically.
I had been doing it wrong this whole time through sweaty effort but in fact, like everything in nature and my true nature, it's incredibly simple.
As intangible as it is, I find its grounding and ethereal, connecting the ability to eliminate what doesn't serve me with the higher vision and light that we all have. As subtle as it is, I find it very real and an integral part of a more complete view of myself.
Like a "paint by number picture," I've acknowledged myself physically, mentally (consciously and subconsciously), spiritually and now energetically and feel that this is the way that this is the way this life was meant to be. All components are just as real and vital to me as food and air. And I can experience and use all of this stuff in every day life. How lucky I am!