One of the most interesting concepts I've been thinking a lot about is money as a socialized method of control, of separation from my true self. I've realized how much influence I've allowed it have over me, regarding choices of what I allow myself to do, how to live....how to "be." I'm finding it's not so black and white, either.
For something that is either simple (now that I have it) or all consuming (when I didn't), I wanted to study the almost mystical power it has over me to understand why.
In looking at myself on many levels, physical, spiritual, and energetic, I've looked at money in the same way.
- Physical: I gotta be practical, I need it to live. Looking at Maslow's Pyramid of Needs, it goes without saying that without our basic physiological needs for food, shelter....a certain level certaintity around it, we can't do much other than getting that foundation set. So, here in the US, at least for me, I need that aspect of money to survive. Without that, everything above that, like all my spiritual stuff, I suspect, would get a little wobbly.
- Spiritual: Listening to T. Harv Eker's spiritual millionaire talks, it seems reasonable that abundance (with the filter of money) can align with our natural state just like nature is abundant (water, air) and can be seen as a tool to do good.
- Energetic: Thinking of money as a material object, it's reasonable to think of it as a form of energy as well. Donating it with a heartfelt blessing feels different than say, giving it when robbed at gunpoint. We give a part of ourselves with and for it....I give energy at work in exchange for a paycheck, and I give a part of myself in loving support to others when buying something handmade by them.
The handcuff filter is what I'm bumping against right now - the way I use my energy to get it is not being fully aligned with my North Star. To get enough momentum to leave that paternal tie of a noble, well-meaning, wonderful corporation to follow more completely the full use of my life purpose to earn a living by expressing myself creatively and bring beauty to a world thirsty for it.
All of this has brought me to a point to understand and accept my confidence in owning my self-worth...am I deserving enough to really earn and receive money doing something that can really help people in a way that is unique to me, without the constraints of a corporation's control and mission? Will life synchronize to meet me half way if I start?
The only way to find out is to take a step forward towards it, just like everything else I've done in my life so far.
Despite his loud style, I loved T. Harv Eker's Spiritual Laws of Money offered by mindvalley academy.
Money can't buy happiness but neither can poverty. Leo Rosten