A year ago, a very important phase of my life ended: Decades of working in the corporate space.
It was a Friday, my last day of being employed by someone else.
I was tired and at the same time, extraordinarily motivated to start full time, both feet in, into the work I was called to do years earlier.
I had planned for it diligently and with integrity, closing one phase while my other hand was on the doorknob of a new phase. It was the space of in-between the Now and the New and I was fully aware of it.
The future of what that would look like was just beyond my fingertips. I could just about feel and taste it in the material world but knew I had to take a step into it in order to bring it closer.
The future seemed so far away and yet, it was right in front of me.
In the year of being on my own, I’ve gone several times to the darkest innermost cave, dark nights of the soul, if you will. And, always popped out much quicker than before to possibilities that materialized in ways I never thought possible.
So much so that every week is a quantum leap forward. What I write today will no longer be accurate of who I am next week.
Looking back, I see how essential each step was to get me where I am…and because I believe in doing one thing but at several layers, brought forward immense potential along my timeline this past year even though it’s only been 365 days.
The seeds planted many spring seasons before have sprouted and bloomed as I see this fall season’s harvest.
As I recount my achievements, the invitation is for you also to sit with me and stitch together what this fall season brings to you.
There is always forward movement for all of us when we look at the energetic core of our lives.
I hadn’t planted the Why for my business in the ground, where it matters.
That’s different than knowing what and how I do my stuff and extends beyond the initial why I started my business. But what the heck was I solving? Why did I leave the best company I ever worked for, colleagues I loved deeply, and a sense of corporate fulfillment I always dreamed of being to jump into “something” bigger for me to expand into?
It turns out that I’m here to help people find the overlooked power in their lives and for the most part, to do so in the context of where they spend most of their time…whether it’s in the office, a caregiving situation, their business, or some other relationship dynamic, especially the relationship with themselves.
That alone changes their world, the one filled with the details of life like a job, relationship status, kids, personal, spiritual and professional achievements.
What is your Why?
I had a fear of being seen.
Speaking up in the environment in the corporate space was easy. Local or global initiatives were not a problem for me. Unwinding political Winchester house dynamics was fun. Influencing through an uplifting of seeing others’ gifts was my joy.
But outside of those corporate walls, to be seen as a soul who was offering a different way to self-actualization was a whole other ball of wax. Being trolled was wrenching and horrifying and yet, I got over that as well as my fear of public speaking.
I found I could move people collectively, allowing them to suspend their attachment to reality just for a few moments so that they could be empowered to believe that something else was possible.
To get to that point, I had to get practice so I joined Toastmasters and a sacred storytelling class led by Leah Lamb. You can read about the impact of her class on my work here on her Facebook page.
I now express my work through speaking engagements and running workshops…and love it immensely.
I now don’t shit in my pants when doing videos after realizing that it was up to me to hold a sense of integrity, not marketing manipulation, in the noisy social media space.
Do you realize your story is all of our stories?
My Oh, By the Way, was what people really want.
Still, despite the integrity foundation of my company, I was finding it hard to get traction and became incredibly despondent.
Then, I pulled into my space an incredible coach, Marsh Engle, who built a marketing and PR empire in the entertainment industry to only retreat into a forest when faced with a life-threatening illness. When she emerged, she created an Amazing Woman Nation, to support women in the movement of feminine leadership when no one knew what that was…and did so for 25 years until the world finally tuned their ears and is ready to hear women’s’ voices.
For the first time, I met someone who was so far ahead of me and yet so accessible, I finally had a guiding light I could trust with every layer of who I am.
It was only working with her that she pointed out to me that the reason I felt so untethered was I was creating something new and there was no reference point for me to reflect my progress against.
I am not here to regurgitate existing modalities of achievement or spirituality but teach others another way of doing both.
Then, she told me the thing that people really want is not my coaching but the aspect of myself I took for granted to the point I didn’t recognize it. This gift of sacred sight that allows me to see the past, present, future and what blocks forward movement in this present time moment…and how to unwind the block at the core quickly, bypassing old modalities that no longer work for some.
THAT is the thing that lights people up and pulls them into my field without me uttering a word.
it has always been the key to my success all of my life but I never knew it. It was always the last thing I mentioned in words like, “I just make friends easily with everyone. I love everyone instantly. I don’t know why. I see A to Z so easily and wonder why others don’t.” until she translated it for me to tell me, “It’s because you always see the truth of who people really are, their highest potential, the purest expression of who they are even if they don’t know themselves in that way.”
She saw the value in that so much so that she invited me to contribute to the first chapter of her upcoming book in the Spring of 2020, working title, “Lead, Amazing Woman, Lead.”
What is your Oh, By the Way?
That is what the world really needs.
I have room for my why to come through now that I know what it is so that my intellectual mind can do all of the normal business things in an aligned way.
I recognize and respect myself so others can, too.
It has always been easier for me to promote others and less so for myself. I just need one person to give me a thumbs off in order for me to rocket on my path.
I had the courage to invite to lunch someone I admired for 25 years earlier this year to learn her story, who she was, and how she chose a business that everyone was drawn to. Wanda Wen, creator of Soolip, a luxury stationery store always provided a respite to me when I was younger. Entering her shop allowed me to believe in how beautiful life could be and that perhaps, I’d be able to achieve a potential beyond my dreams.
She embodies through and through the mission of teaching people to create the beauty of art in life which doesn’t imply you need to be an artist. During our lunch, she asked about me and my perspective about my work and experience. She closed her eyes and said, “You must write a book because I want to read it. It can change everything.”
So, I did. Not because I thought of it but because SHE encouraged me to do so. And she did so because she was so whole and knowing of who she is that she had the ability to hold space for someone else to bloom.
My book, The Dharma of Business - an alchemy to change the nature of business, is neither intellectual nor spiritual but both. It is my legacy tribute to everyone I’ve ever worked for or with, to my family and friends, and to entrepreneurial network because you all have given me gifts that make me who I am.
The book is great but what was most difficult for me was to see myself as the person I am becoming…a leader who is creating something new that will tilt the world 1/1,000,000,000,000 degree into a rightful balance, not by what I do or the external definitions of who I am. These details of life are so finite but the truth of who I am is not.
Until I saw this truth for myself by simply looking in the mirror.
Do you know the truth of who you are and your vast potential?
I also pulled into my life those who weren’t such a great fit. Those who were deceitful, offering to help but never coming through except for their own purposes. Still, they provided me gifts that I needed to learn about myself despite the pain of disappointment that wrapped those gifts.
This taught me to trust the unknown, step into it without judgment or expectations…as if everything was my last act on earth. No bullshit or attachments to see the power of my presence and to trust it…and to openly receive what I create.
What was beyond my fingertips is now in my hands.
Each step, even when I was hesitant or unclear allows me to see where my feet are now planted. I’ve proven to myself that I can create clean money without outdated marketing tactics and strategies.
It is possible.
It is possible because I’ve brought all parts of my neglected parts and the overlooked gifts of connection, belonging, and the receptivity for all things to find me.
It is not about me working my ass out, hustling, creating sales funnels, following a strategic social media campaign.
It is much easier. Much more powerful.
It’s been about me showing up and letting my energy do the heavy lifting so that my intellectual capabilities can execute on doing the work, preparing, presenting, writing, and posting in social media.
It’s about allowing the immense power of my creativity (not necessarily artistic) bridge itself to my rich and vast material and professional world experience.
I use the untapped potential we all have inside of ourselves to call into my space the right people with the right energy with the right intentions and…we get stuff done but in a way you might not be aware of. We all move forward rapidly beyond what our intellectual imaginations can fathom.
My clients triple their income in a month, release old stories of subservience to jump into their own businesses that quickly bring the results they seek, and I get to do the same for myself.
It is a gift of equality and infinity that reverberates into perpetuity through practical and tangible next best steps that inform the next.
Our social and political landscape is changing in an accelerated way because we are re-weaving it daily. We create the future today in what we do, how we show up.
Do you realize you are changing the future today?
My eyes look towards What’s Next?
My work evolves so more of me can show up, be received so I can receive more of this life that exceeds my wildest dreams and nightmares. Both are needed for the fullness of where I am going.
I’ve created another course for Alchemists and Mavericks who have trouble getting traction in their businesses. Those who weave the unseen through transformative modalities or those who have created businesses because of al life-changing event.
I see the patterns that hold them back and net them to make things hard so they can release the hidden power of those stories.
They are the same patterns I saw in the corporate world even though the expression and details are different.
I am the person who will be widely seen on the stage by those audiences eager to catch the words that reflect the truth they have yet to see in themselves. To be a billboard, not a post-it, as Marsh says.
I see myself in new locations, visiting and immersing into the sights and sounds that make those locations unique.
I see myself giving a place for my money to land and be useful by creating self-sustaining abodes of stillness so that people in the art of transition can find their footing and be here to hear what their next best steps are…and give back to this planet we all live on.
This year, that is what just beyond my fingertips.