Someone asked me, "Why is this so hard?" You know, why are problems so hard to deal with sometimes.
You know how I feel that everything that happens in our life is a correlation of what we (or our scripts) have created. Regardless of how life happens, it's always meant to be a gift. You know that already.
What I find what happens is, until you get used to these proof points of how powerful you are and can see how your life reflects instantly what both your conscious desires and hidden drivers bring into reality, it can be really hard to adjust to the capacity you are building if you used your old lexicon or definition of that event.
When anything expands, a balloon for example, there is increased pressure as the capacity begins to stretch, right? Well, in our path, as we continue to expand and progress onward, which is in accordance to how humans are designed, it may seem like it's hard or painful when you use the lexicon that you were socialized or imprinted to believe.
And this goes deeper than just flipping your attitudes or beliefs - it's about being open to receive your own true definition of the gift that you created.
When you grow, you change, right? And society and human history hasn't painted the most graceful picture of change...it's chaotic, it's hard, it's unpredictable, it's towards the unknown. And I've written about why the unknown in any type of change is naturally scary before - you're not accustomed to being full of your true self, or trusting your own power to create.
And it doesn't help that the lexicon that we filter life through isn't ours, so we use words like hard and scary, when in fact, as you continue to move forward, it's about owning your expansion, delighting in your power to direct it.
That might take some time realize unless you have a different lens to filter your life through.
Give yourself a break....what do you think a caged animal who's lived its entire life in captivity does immediately after the doors are opened and its freed into a protected environment? You think it's overjoyed to run out of the only life its known into the wild blue yonder?
I would imagine it would take a few seconds to realize that what's "out there" is liberation and limitless. And during those seconds it might even recoil a bit, unable to move beyond the invisible pull that makes it hard to walk out of that door, thinking, "Wait, that's scary. That's hard to walk through that opening."
It's not until it sees that the open door doesn't have an net to make it hard to walk through or that what's really out there beyond the cage is exactly what its heart yearned for even though it may not have consciously dreamed of it.
And then when it does walk through that door, I imagine it running the heck away from that cage quickly, leaping from the soft grass and into the open freedom as its instinct takes over. Then its definition of that open door is not about fear but about liberation.
It emerges out something small, prickly, and ugly because that thing they are popping out of is now a limitation or a box that is limiting.
Same door, different lexicon.
So, as you continue on, think about changes and what appear to be snaufs as gifts that you actually created once you unwind, unwrap the deeper meaning of what's happening.
A rejection actually becomes YOUR rejection of an old tribe that doesn't support you so that you can conjure up a new one, a better one that you are actually conjuring up right now.
A graceful way to move through your expansion is to realize these two things:
- At some unseen level, you created this gift to expand
- Look beyond the surface of the shitty wrapping of it to unpeel what is really being given to you. This is a change of your old lexicon to the one that you create in your true life.
Life is not intended to be hard or hurtful - it is always working in your favor if you decode it in a way where you see your own part in it and your magic (or even your subconscious' hidden scripts) to create it for yourself. Even those hidden drivers which seem to be jacking you up are intended to give you the gift you are waiting to receive.
Your life, as you secretly crate it, happens every moment of the day. And as you live it, try a new lexicon that looks beyond the surface until you find the gift that you desire.